Monday, December 28, 2009


This morning I was speaking to one of my closest and oldest girlfriends, with whom I share a very special bond. On a broad level, we are as different as day and night and yet it’s scary how we share so much in common. We have had the most contrasting picture of life for the longest time and still through it all, we have learnt the art of acknowledging each other’s idea of life and somewhere down the road, our dreams have always merged. So I was not surprised how we both were going through the exact same thought process today. We both seemed upset, rather depressed and mostly angry about how we have had random people come and ask us when we were planning to get hitched. Seriously, this should be a taboo question because what it does is puts pressure on unmarried people who are leading otherwise normal life’s without these random people questioning them.

And this is my problem- none of these people matter to us and yet they play such a significant part in our otherwise calm lives with their mindless titter tatter? Can somebody explain the human mind to me please? Because with each passing day, I am struggling to understand how people think and why they think so obsessively about other people’s weddings!

I am emotional, but I have always thought with my head (well in most cases) and somehow I am now stressed about this entire marriage issue because everyone around me thinks I am old enough to be married? I have struggled the last few years, given up so many special moments to achieve a flourishing career and now all of a sudden I feel like a visitor who has overstayed in my parents’ house? Nobody acknowledges my career anymore, all they talk about is how I am still unmarried. More than anything it scares me to think that I will never be able to please anyone. I will be this huge disappointment and will not live up to anyone’s expectations- because let’s face it, nobody expects a flourishing career for a girl, what they do expect is a married 27 year old woman :(

Monday, March 30, 2009

Err...Butterflies !

When it comes to relationships, maybe we're all in glass houses, and shouldn't throw stones, Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies....
- Carrie from Sex and the City

Oh! The smugly married- They make me want to choke them! Firstly, I am sick of people settling for imperfection, then trying to combat their agony by being over the moon every time you speak to them. And all this in public view of a life I would NEVER want to have. I know this sounds harsh, even bitchy to a great extent, but think about it- I do not want an average life- I never have wanted one. I do not want a compromising relationship, where I wake up every morning to someone who is living his side of the deal and I'm living mine. Whats the point of settling down just for the heck of it? It has got to be the perfect person- it's a question of two lives (mine being the more important one!). It' s like all celebrations in my life have been halted till I tread to the alter- how annoying.

Nothing seems to go the correct direction- it's so sad... I am going back to my retail world- it's all so pretty and charming, pink and glossy, with a variety that could make my heart skip a beat... and no I will not have to settle for anything less! Than err... BUTTERFLIES!